Health Issues :(
December 16th, 2004 05:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
skrobertsI have severe problems with acne. I haven't grown out of it, I doubt I ever will. There isn't a day I'm not in pain, physically and/or mentally. It's not always terrible, but it's a constant in my life.
I'm having to go back on a medication I really didn't want to do again. It's not that I had any adverse effects or anything, but I really don't want to have to be doing this again, having my blood drawn every single month. I suspect the first time I was on it set in motion my near phobia of having my blood drawn, because I can't stopping myself from passing out, no matter what I do. Passing out scares me, and therefore, having blood drawn scares me. Add to that, that this will totally cause havoc with my class schedules since I go to school away from home, the future isn't looking all sparkly for me.
I've tried. There are no other options left. This is the only thing that's possibly going to make me feel better. I'm just very unhappy right now. I hate that my genetics are so seemingly screwed up that it's caused this much upset for me my whole life.
I'm going to go curl up in a ball in the corner now...
I'm having to go back on a medication I really didn't want to do again. It's not that I had any adverse effects or anything, but I really don't want to have to be doing this again, having my blood drawn every single month. I suspect the first time I was on it set in motion my near phobia of having my blood drawn, because I can't stopping myself from passing out, no matter what I do. Passing out scares me, and therefore, having blood drawn scares me. Add to that, that this will totally cause havoc with my class schedules since I go to school away from home, the future isn't looking all sparkly for me.
I've tried. There are no other options left. This is the only thing that's possibly going to make me feel better. I'm just very unhappy right now. I hate that my genetics are so seemingly screwed up that it's caused this much upset for me my whole life.
I'm going to go curl up in a ball in the corner now...
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Date: December 16th, 2004 03:20 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: December 16th, 2004 03:27 pm (UTC)Isn't there a possibility for you to get a doctor near your school to draw your blood and let the lab send the results to your doctor at home who is familiar with your case and you just call him about the results? Maybe take Alex or another of your roomies with you for support for the drawing? I know this is possible in Germany. Or at least has been when me and my ex-boyfriend spend the summer at his mother one year and I had a test due during that time. I only had to call my doctor two days later.
I know it is not easy to adjust to a new doctor, especially not for you, I assume, but maybe this is a better solution than having to miss classes or work your schedule around your monthly doctor's appointments.
And we already talked about the passing out thing. I'm just happy that I only pass out during the summer and am sorry that none of my "tricks" work for you.
*snuggles up to the ball in the corner*
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Date: December 16th, 2004 03:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: December 16th, 2004 04:17 pm (UTC)What are they going to start you on, hun? I'm going to be starting on birth control and have some topical stuff I use for it.
Feel free to contact me off list if you want. (((Hugs)))
IM is OXBastetXO.
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Date: December 16th, 2004 04:37 pm (UTC)What about Diane 35? Have you tried that? There are also various forms of Ortho out there...different strengths suited to however much you need. At the moment I'm on depo provera, which is a shot once ever 3 months. It's not used for acne...tho I'm not sure what exactly the cause of your acne is--have you gone to a specialist??
Just curious because I know that for the longest time I was just letting my family doctor play guinea pig with me before I finally said enough is enough and asked to see a specialist.
I've never had bad acne, but there was a while when I was younger when I had a lot of it--not the normal acne, just one more side effect of whatever is wrong with me--the doctors put me on Diane 35 and gave me a topical treatment. The topical worked great, the only side effect being a sensitivity to sun and a slight burning when applied. Other than that there were no major side effects.
Sorry I'm rambling and you can tell me to just shut up if you want. I was just sitting here thinking back and remembered the meds for acne and wanted to mention them just in case your doctor hasn't mentioned them to you.
Again *huggles* anytime you wanna talk hun just drop a line.
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Date: December 16th, 2004 05:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: December 16th, 2004 06:05 pm (UTC)Ergh, I hate that you're feeling this way. If you need anything, don't hesitate to ask me, hon. Much love to you.
*snuggles up to the ball along with Roadie*
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Date: December 16th, 2004 06:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: December 16th, 2004 08:16 pm (UTC)If there's anything I can do... Could you get a doctor in Montgomery? That might make your schedule issues a wee bit easier... If you did, I could go with you for moral support... Last year I went with Jenny K for every one of her shots, just to have someone there... She nearly broke my hand a few times, but it's all good... and I'd be more than willing to be there for you. You shouldn't have to go this alone!
Gah, and down with genes! They've never done anyone any good... we should just get rid of them all together.
*more hugs*
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Date: December 16th, 2004 09:57 pm (UTC)*sigh* I'm sorry I'm not alone... *pats you*
If you ever need to talk Hun I'm just an email away.
Thank you muchly. *imbibes huggles* I'm much better after distracting myself with dinner and movie with my parents. There may even be a bubble bath in my near future. :)
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Date: December 16th, 2004 10:08 pm (UTC)There are places here where they do nothing but take blood and other stuff for testing, so a doctor isn't needed. I'm sure there has to be something like that near school. My doctor offered the option, too, that my mother take the blood, since she is a nurse and knows how to do so. But she would have to drive 2 hours to get to me every time she has to do it. *sigh*
Maybe take Alex or another of your roomies with you for support for the drawing?
Alex is a doll baby and already offered. *clings to her* It will all depend how I feel that day and how we decide to have it taken.
I'm just happy that I only pass out during the summer and am sorry that none of my "tricks" work for you.
I have to have it drawn tomorrow. I am going to try thinking of BSM. ;)
*snuggles up to the ball in the corner*
Awwww-www-wwwwwwe. *happy tears at the image*
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Date: December 16th, 2004 10:28 pm (UTC)But thanks for trying to help! It means a lot. *hugs*
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Date: December 16th, 2004 10:29 pm (UTC)I'm sorry I'm not alone. *pats you*
What are they going to start you on, hun? I'm going to be starting on birth control and have some topical stuff I use for it.
It will be Acutane (or possibly a generic variety). I've been on the pill for a long time to regulate my cycle and know it has certainly helped some. But it's not enough. Nor are topical stuffs. I just have too much surface area that needs treating, I can't reach it all. It could still help you, though. *crosses fingers*
Feel free to contact me off list if you want. (((Hugs)))
Thank you muchly for the hugs! I feel better now that some time has passed and I've been able to distract myself. ;) But I very much appreciate your support. *hugs back*
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Date: December 16th, 2004 10:46 pm (UTC)Before all this, I was already on one name or the other to try to regulate my cycle. Currently, I'm on Seasonel (sp?). I don't have problems with the pills, side effects wise. It's just that they aren't enough for my acne.
have you gone to a specialist??
If you mean dermatologist, then yes. Was there this morning, in fact, which spurred all this in the first place. *g*
The topical worked great
I'm really bad off. I've tried several topicals, but mine is just too widespread, I can't get to all of it to treat. *sigh*
Sorry I'm rambling and you can tell me to just shut up if you want.
No problem at all! It means a lot that you cared enough to think about it. *snuggles*
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Date: December 16th, 2004 10:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: December 16th, 2004 10:48 pm (UTC)Many thanks! :)
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Date: December 16th, 2004 10:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: December 16th, 2004 11:00 pm (UTC)I'm going to try it with this doctor for now. I really don't want to change, but it could be a consideration.
If you did, I could go with you for moral support
*clings* I love you. :) I'm not saying you can't back out any time, but moral support is of the good.
Last year I went with Jenny K for every one of her shots, just to have someone there... She nearly broke my hand a few times, but it's all good
It's just that I can never keep myself from passing out. It happens every time, no matter what I do. It's terribly disconcerting for me, but it must be very awkward for anyone watching when it happens. I don't want to put you through that if I can help it! My doctor offered the option that my mother take the blood, since she is a nurse and knows how to do so. But she would have to drive 2 hours to get to me every time she has to do it. *sigh*
Gah, and down with genes!
Stupid dad genes. It's always his fault... *g*
*patpat*
Date: December 16th, 2004 11:07 pm (UTC)I agree... gah. Dad genes are teh suck.
And don't worry about putting me through you passing out. It's all good. It's just a lot more upsetting passing out when you're by yourself. Anything I can do to make things easier, just say it and it's done! *big goofy smile*
Seriously.
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Date: December 16th, 2004 11:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: December 16th, 2004 11:14 pm (UTC)Re: *patpat*
Date: December 16th, 2004 11:26 pm (UTC)I'm just warning you, limp!Sarah can't be a fun sight. ;)
Anything I can do to make things easier, just say it and it's done! Seriously.
*still clinging to you*
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Date: December 17th, 2004 03:17 am (UTC)I'm here if you need to talk.
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Date: December 17th, 2004 04:06 am (UTC)I really start to love Alex.
*snuggles her, too*
And I'm sure BSM help a lot.
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Date: December 17th, 2004 05:00 am (UTC)LOL Bubble baths are wonderful!!! Especially if you're home alone and no one is banging on the door to hurry up *snerk*
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Date: December 17th, 2004 05:03 am (UTC)--> Aw:( I'm sorry Hun. Have you tried Tri-Cyclin? It's a very strong BC and according to the package can also be used to treat acne.
If you mean dermatologist, then yes. Was there this morning, in fact, which spurred all this in the first place. *g*
-->Aw *huggles*
I'm really bad off. I've tried several topicals, but mine is just too widespread, I can't get to all of it to treat. *sigh*
-->*huggles again*
No problem at all! It means a lot that you cared enough to think about it. *snuggles*
-->I wish there was something I could do/say hun. But I will keep everything crossed for you that the doctors figure out a treatment for you. *huggles*
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Date: December 17th, 2004 05:28 am (UTC)*BIG HUGS*
Just remember, health is about taking care of you and that's important to everyone on your flist.
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Date: December 17th, 2004 06:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: December 17th, 2004 08:13 am (UTC)*is not very good at supportice words so just offers up Jack as a way of comfort*
Re: *patpat*
Date: December 17th, 2004 08:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: December 18th, 2004 11:33 am (UTC)I've heard for a tip that Visine is good for acne...it used to advertise "Gets the red out"
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Date: December 18th, 2004 06:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: December 18th, 2004 06:13 pm (UTC)*happy hug-clings*
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Date: December 18th, 2004 06:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: December 18th, 2004 06:14 pm (UTC)*graps Jack and runs away with him*
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Date: December 26th, 2004 09:45 pm (UTC)I wish you didn't have to. :(
Cram your belly with food before getting your blood drawn! Maybe that'll help?
I wish I could! But they tell me I have to fast for 12 hours before giving it. And considering I'm as near to being hypoglycemic without actually being hypoglycemic, that *really* sucks. I just have no energy to fight. Stupid blood work.
Oh, well. I guess I'll deal. But thanks for your concern! *huggles*