Health Issues :(
December 16th, 2004 05:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
skrobertsI have severe problems with acne. I haven't grown out of it, I doubt I ever will. There isn't a day I'm not in pain, physically and/or mentally. It's not always terrible, but it's a constant in my life.
I'm having to go back on a medication I really didn't want to do again. It's not that I had any adverse effects or anything, but I really don't want to have to be doing this again, having my blood drawn every single month. I suspect the first time I was on it set in motion my near phobia of having my blood drawn, because I can't stopping myself from passing out, no matter what I do. Passing out scares me, and therefore, having blood drawn scares me. Add to that, that this will totally cause havoc with my class schedules since I go to school away from home, the future isn't looking all sparkly for me.
I've tried. There are no other options left. This is the only thing that's possibly going to make me feel better. I'm just very unhappy right now. I hate that my genetics are so seemingly screwed up that it's caused this much upset for me my whole life.
I'm going to go curl up in a ball in the corner now...
I'm having to go back on a medication I really didn't want to do again. It's not that I had any adverse effects or anything, but I really don't want to have to be doing this again, having my blood drawn every single month. I suspect the first time I was on it set in motion my near phobia of having my blood drawn, because I can't stopping myself from passing out, no matter what I do. Passing out scares me, and therefore, having blood drawn scares me. Add to that, that this will totally cause havoc with my class schedules since I go to school away from home, the future isn't looking all sparkly for me.
I've tried. There are no other options left. This is the only thing that's possibly going to make me feel better. I'm just very unhappy right now. I hate that my genetics are so seemingly screwed up that it's caused this much upset for me my whole life.
I'm going to go curl up in a ball in the corner now...
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Date: December 16th, 2004 04:17 pm (UTC)What are they going to start you on, hun? I'm going to be starting on birth control and have some topical stuff I use for it.
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IM is OXBastetXO.
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Date: December 16th, 2004 10:29 pm (UTC)I'm sorry I'm not alone. *pats you*
What are they going to start you on, hun? I'm going to be starting on birth control and have some topical stuff I use for it.
It will be Acutane (or possibly a generic variety). I've been on the pill for a long time to regulate my cycle and know it has certainly helped some. But it's not enough. Nor are topical stuffs. I just have too much surface area that needs treating, I can't reach it all. It could still help you, though. *crosses fingers*
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Thank you muchly for the hugs! I feel better now that some time has passed and I've been able to distract myself. ;) But I very much appreciate your support. *hugs back*